Crap

Well I just got my grade this morning and they flat out sucked. I managed to pull a C in calc III which i am ok with since that class was graded on a curve and between the last exam and the final everyone pulled their grade up. In Solid modeling an A, which was never questioned. Now statics I somehow got a C+, which doesn’t make any sense since i had a average of about 80% or more. So I’m going to have to talk to the prof and find out what the hell happened. Then we finaly come to methods of analysis which i managed to pull a horrid D. The worst part is that now this is forever going to be on my transcript which mean i am now probably not going to be able to get into grad school which sucks as you really need to have at least a masters to do anything these days in any field. What’s even worse is the prof was a stickler in grading so that if you made even the smallest math error at the beginning you lose all point for that problem. Now granted SDSU allows 3 course forgiveness’s as a undergrad but still. This is forever going to mark me as a failure and there is nothing I can do about it. You I know I should be able to do this stuff, and it is constantly causing me pain when I cant. I know I am smart enough, and I study the material enough. What the hell am I doing wrong? Am I simply just that stupid and quit now and accept a fate of being stuck working in some shit hole job now and stop wasting time? I just don’t know any more, and the worse part is that I know have to get As this summer so as to get my GPA back above a 3.0 before the fall as that’s when my insurance renews, and if I don’t get the student discount then I lose my insurance which means I cant even get to school as I wont be able to drive. If that wasent enought my mom is going to kill me as soon as she finds out what my grades are. So in short my life is going to hell and there is not a damn thing I can do about it.